Mira was ten weeks old on Thursday. She's been doing a lot of cooing lately. I'd forgotten how much fun that is. She looks me right in the eyes, forms her little mouth intently and says things like, "geee, ahhh, and argh". Then she gives me her gorgeous smile because she is so proud of herself.
Her hair is finally starting to lay down to one side but we still get comments about it whenever we go out. Mostly people say they've never seen a blond baby with so much hair.
Her eyes have gotten a little lighter and seem to be holding at a blue-gray.
She's also working on rolling over and seems to recognize that her limbs belong to her now. There's nothing funnier than to see a baby staring at their own fists with that look of, "oh, wow, those are mine!".
I finally manged to get her birth announcements out! Now I'm working on thank you notes.
Yesterday evening Margo started screaming about a headache and upon touching her noticed that she was burning up as well. It started to hit Solomon about 15 minutes later. A half hour later and both kids were asleep. Margo on the floor. Geesh. Jon took over with the kids and I tried my best to stay clear of them and their bodily fluids. Margo threw up a few times last night. So far Mira and the grown ups haven't gotten it. Solomon woke up this morning feeling a lot better, fever is gone and he ate some breakfast, played with legos, etc... Margo is still fighting the fever and hasn't eaten anything, threw up some water she drank... Poor baby girl. At least she still has her sass. Last night when she would wake up she would yell out, "DAAAAA-Da!" with an almost southern drawl. She also insisted that she was not sick. "I said I'm not sick, Daaaa-da!".
I'm bummed because a friend from grad school is getting married this evening on Fox island. I was looking forward to going out there with the kids and Jon and celebrating her marriage! I'm so happy for her. She was married when we met and later divorced because she found out he had been untruthful to her. Then she had a run of bad relationships... any way. I'm so happy for her, she's very much in love and this really seems like a good match for her. Yea! Hopefully, if I stay symptom free I'll be able to take Mira and attend the wedding. It just won't be as much fun without Jon.
I'm doing much better. I've been enjoying my time with the kids and Mira. She's a sweet little baby and it helps that she is sleeping well at night. Although she doesn't always take predictable naps during the day but that is what slings and wraps are for!
I'm able to drink a cup of coffee a day and the anxiety is all but gone. I still feel sad about our world and the direction we seem to be heading. I worry about the world we are leaving for our children and their children. I worry about my mortality and Jon's. I hope my children don't wait quite as long as we did to have children, so that I will be able to see my own grandchildren and be a support to them.
Mostly I'm trying to stay in the moment and enjoy it. Instead of living for the past or future. I'm a little freaked out about turning 39 and mourning the loss of my 30's. My 30's were good to me! I finished grad school, fell in love, bought a home, had three kids! Met some of the greatest people I've ever known. I feel comfortable in my skin. I guess I just need to relax and enjoy my last year and get ready for the adventures 40 has in store....
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